New Year... New Start (2010)

Through the rush of life we tend to forget perhaps temporarily what its all been like for us... hours, minutes, days, months and years pass us by and we don't even notice how much everything has changed. By everything i mean our life, the people around us and more importantly us.. what we think like what we identify with and therefore how we choose to belong to our life and the people in it.

Its complicated isn't it?? i mean how are we to do all the things that life requires us to do AND keep track of the changes that come with the various choices we make everyday?

It is too much to ask for from simple humans like us and perhaps that is why we get one special moment once a year, the 31st of December.. to realise and reflect on what has happened and to understand that it is all in our past now and that there is a tomorrow out there, a tomorrow that can be completely different from our today. This is where the concept of hope and faith come in i guess.. as we hope that life turns out to be better than we are planning it to be as we try to have faith in our self to find the strength that lies within us to face the challenges that come along the path we choose in our search for an almost perfect future.

Its all very normal and everyone does it.. millions of billions of people wish each other and also secretly wish for themselves just like we use to when we were 5 yrs old that some one or something will change it all... that's human nature you cant help but expect that teeny bit more from your life because we are all in search for something better, bigger, higher that will satisfy us all.

Selfish and ungrateful thinking? yes it is, and while that great big higher power up there (if it really does exist) might not like that one bit we can't help it because we make mistakes and we wish them away the first chance we get or at least try to anyway and so not wanting to ruin our 'limited' chances at happiness we either live in fear or apathy.

I myself any other human being will admit to making mistakes which by the way are very different from regrets because mistakes are stupid blunders we know we could have avoided and regrets are actions we take in our senses that we like to brush of as mistakes and forget about which frankly isn't fair. Therefore in the past year (2009) i reflect upon the many mistakes that i have made but regret none of them as today they have made and continue to make me the person i am and will be.

So why is a new start so important to us all? because its the one moment we get in life that shows us our results sort of like the days our report cards come out in school. It is the common moment of truth among all the noise and rush of life and involves reality hitting is in the face telling us exactly how far we have to go and in some rare cases congratulating us on how far we have come.

Yeah it is complicated and not at all easy to have faith move on and hope no matter what your past was like to have something better sometime soon. But maybe that's what a new start is all about, appreciating along with all the little things we have in life the strength it takes simply to be human and being prepared for a whole new beginning that might just surprise you...